Dinner and Santa Monica Pier

Today, Ray and I have been together for half a year, so we're going to Ken of Japan and to the Santa Monica pier tonight. I'm wearing a dress I bought a year ago and never wore. I have second day curls and threw them up in a pony tail. I finally did some laundry and am discovering new clothes all over again. The sky is becoming gray more and more frequently. I smell fall! Can't wait. What's your favorite season?

OUTFIT DETAILS:

Leather Jacket: Love Culture

Dress: Rewind (thrift store in Sherman Oaks)

Heels: Shrek

Lazy Sunday

OUTFIT DETAILS:

Shirtdress: Buffalo Exchange

Belt: Forever 21

This outfit is featuring my dog, Gabby. You will probably see a lot more pictures of her in future posts :) Anyway, Sunday was spent doing homework and heading over to my boyfriend's house. This shirt dress looks a lot shorter in the picture than it is in real life. I'm actually very short, 5'0 and with that, my legs are short too. Anyway, instead of being in boxers and a tank all day, I decided I'd wear a casual outfit that I would actually wear in public. I paired this shirt dress with a wide woven belt to give it some shape. My hair is just natural with a headband to get the hair out of my face. AND my hair is not that stringy, I promise! I messed up my ends from a curling iron which caused my ends to look like straw.

I've felt so productive today. I love feeling motivated to do things. I hope this feeling doesn't go away! Anyway, I hope everyone had a good weekend! I did :)

Trying something new

It's exactly 12:00 right now and I've been up for an hour. I think that is enough time to lay in bed and be lazy (like I have been) but now it's time to get up! I don't need to go out somewhere, but I need to at least get dressed and get ready for the day so that I can at least feel like I'm being more productive.

Date Night

OUTFIT DETAILS:

shirt: Buffalo Exchange

Jeans: Urban Outfitters

Booties: Marshalls (Madden Girl brand)

I did end up changing my outfit. I've been neglecting this top so I decided instead of wearing some shirt that I constantly wear, I'd pick one out that doesn't get much wear. It was until then that I realized that the top gives me a bit of a boxy shape and has an awkward cut. I simply solve this problem by wearing it under a blazer that I got from Neiman Marcus. Sorry, the blazer isn't pictured above. I also haven't worn these jeans in forever! They're super long on my short legs. (I'm 5'0) so I always have to wear them with something that will cover my ankle. I know I should probably get them hemmed but I've been rather lazy. Now that I think about it, every item worn in this outfit doesn't get a lot of wear. I haven't worn these boots since my 16th birthday. I didn't even realize it! This makes me want to wear some more of my old clothes.

Make up is done for tonight. I'm not sure if I want to curl my hair or just leave it like it is. I decided on an outfit last night, but now I want to go through my closet and pick something else. Not sure though! Just making a post to eliminate some time because our date isn't until this evening and it's only 2 -_- Anyway, if I choose a different outfit for tonight I'll post pictures when I get home.

help

I must be HTML stupid. I look at all these awesome blogs and cannot figure it out! That may also be because I haven't worked with HTML in a few years. I guess I'll just need to do a grip of Googling to figure it out. Or maybe someone can give me tips? I would really appreciate it :)

These pictures are really unflattering but this is what I will be wearing tomorrow on a double date. We're just going to dinner and a movie, so I'm keeping it cute, but casual. I am the shortest person going with my boyfriend, my friend and her boyfriend who are all 6 inches or more taller than me, so I'm adding height with these wedges.

I really should invest in a new camera and have someone take pictures for me. But for now, my point and shoot and mini tripod are my best friends.

I have been loving combat boots lately. Sometimes I feel out of place because a lot of people in this town are very casual, but what the heck, why not stand out? I've recently started to scope out Lookbok.nu and other fashion blogs and that's where I get my inspiration from. I need to get a large sum of money and head over to Buffalo Exchange and Orange County and go shopping! The mall out here has recently shut down a lot of their good stores. I went to a birthday party today and was so happy to feel how chilly it was and to see the clouds out when I was walking Gabby this morning. Unfortunately, the weather made a complete 180 and got hot. Can't fall come any sooner?

I really don't understand how some people are so capable of being inconsiderate to other people's feelings. I've never been the kind of person to put myself before others. I'm not sure whether or not that's a good trait that I have. I know I'm not a perfect person and in no way am I saying I am, but I just don't understand. I wish I could. I wish I could understand what goes through people's heads. If I could all the times where I've wanted to ask "why?" would be answered. I suppose I am a controlling person. I just want people to be good and I know that a lot of people have it in their hearts to be a wonderful person, but they're so incapable of taking other's advice and letting it go in one ear and out the other. Why can't people just listen? Some may say that I'm guilty of this, but I'm not. I do listen and I hear every word that is said. I take it in and consider the things they say, but when I know it won't make me happy, I do what I want to do. For example, my relationship. After going through all we have and after what I've been put through, people tell me that it's in my best interest to leave. I guess in some aspects that's true... I'll be able to avoid the heartache and the struggles, but that's just it. If I can't go through those obstacles and leave it behind, what about what I'll miss out on? Some problems aren't always going to be resolved after the first argument, it may take hundreds of arguments but for the most part, I'm okay with that. The special relationship I have with Ray is unlike any other I've experienced before. Sure, I've experienced a lot with Brad and spent a year of my life with him as my world, but I learned from that. The heroin addict put me through so much pain that I do regret it sometimes, but it made me wiser and that much stronger. I now know what to lookout for and I now speak up for myself. When I was fourteen, someone told me that I make people feel awful and low of themselves. Although that may be true, it was never intentional. I was straightforward and stuck up for myself. After being told that, I stopped all together. I was not straightforward in all situations unless someone really pushed me to speak up. After several experiences of only taking in what people said, I got hurt repeatedly. It's not worth it to me. Of course I take other people's feelings into consideration, but I do have to think of myself sometimes. I guess all the wonder I have and all the misconceptions of people is why I want to become a psychologist. I want to be able to study people and know what the fuck is going on in their head. I didn't believe in mental disorders and just believed it was just for the government to make money from the pills they distribute, but now I've realized and accepted that some people have a screw (or 100) loose up there.

In other news, I love the shirt I'm wearing in this picture. It was 7$ at TJMaxx. What a deal! It was cute and cheap. Not to mention my dog. I love this dog with my whole heart and protect her like she is my child. I admit I do spoil her and baby her, but whatever. I do what I want and do what I can to keep her happy.

It was ridiculously hot today and wearing that jacket (of course) made it so much worse, butI really think it pulled my outfit together. After running around town with Gabby, we dropped her off and headed out to LA for dinner. I ended up ordering something that was way too much for me. I guess the next time I order somewhere I've never been before, I should ask exactly what it is and not assume. I suppose you really do learn something new every day!

Wouldn't it be nice to know that every word that every person was true? And that people didn't have the need to lie all the time? My love for animals is so strong because they are the ones that will love you unconditionally and their love is pure. Most people are too selfish to know that kind of love.

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There are several reasons I want to get out of this town. My past disgusts me and knowing all the people who were apart of it makes my stomach turn. It may sound exaggerated and it's definitely not the first time a teenager has said this, but I mean it. I associated myself with downright scandelous and misguided people. I now am in the background of what's going on and truthfully, only spend most of my days with two people. I am perfectly content with that because majority of the people I befriended before were not real friends. They were people I would lose sight of reality with. It's not the best thing to nearly isolate yourself from your peers, but its something I've come to terms with because I know how sick in the head I was just 8 months ago. I am me again and out of that dark hole. I started to breathe again.
Disclaimer: I am NOT talking about all of the people I was friends with, I mean most. There are still friends that I don't see anymore who are still dear to my heart

Computer is finally up and running! It'll be nice not having to depend on other people's computers and my phone for internet access. I attempted to go thrift shopping today and I'm not very good at it.. looks like I'm better at shopping at the mall.

I hadn't deemed it possible to go through all Ray and I have and to still be in a relationship months later. Though we've had a lot of ups and a lot of downs, our relationship is still strong and happy. I used to wonder why people would stay together after what they've gone through and now I understand. I've gone through my share of boys and I didn't get anything out of it aside from hurt and learning lessons. I grew sick and tired of those learning lessons and wanted something real.

Previous experiences left me shook up and sick in the head. I turned to a lifestyle that took me away from reality and a few months of my life are a blur. I lost sight of myself and became downright embarrassing. I was plain out bitter. The last person I "dated" before Ray makes me sick. The things that person put me through and did to me were enough to put me in a dark enough place to make losing myself and reality possible. I look at him as a mistake but I don't regret it. What I learned will be with me for the rest of my life. If it weren't for me being sad, I wouldn't have ended up over at Ray's house in his backyard talking about everything under the sun. I also wouldn't have gotten so close to Jenn. I can't express how much I love the both of them and how much I care for them. I am so grateful for them and cannot thank them enough.